I’m drinking instead of doing the stuff i need to do. I leave for a week tomorrow. I gots stuff to do..but don’t wanna do any of it. Now comes the time when i start rationalizing things aka talking myslef out of doing the things I should be doing:
1. i don’t need to get the dry cleaning. I can wear that one shirt a few times. it looks good
2. laudry? I can do it at my grandma’s house later in the week..I’ll bring dirty clothes (I never do though)
3. get my pipe from my brothers…nah…I’ll roll up some Js..hello being too stoned most of the time cause i end up smoking the whole j myslef. could have bigger problems I guess
4. burn mix cds for the 13 hour fucking drive…surely i have some i haven’t heard a million times (no I dont)…maybe the radio? some of that good midwestern stuff (yeah…no…it hardly exists except for a little public radio bluegrass for about an hour)
5. pick up beer for dad in law….yeungling,. you’re only a semi decent beer anyway…i really gotta truck that shit all the way there because they dont sell it where I’m going? they have fat tire there now..its better anyway
6. give dog a bath….nah, he’s not that smelly…i lilke that stanky dog smell. gives him character..who wants a pooch that smells like coconuts? not me. his hari has better texture when its dirty
7. clean up a bit casue who wants to come home to a dirty house? me thats who..who wants to clean now…i wont even be here to enjoy it
8. set out of office email and phon at worke…fuck i forgot to do that…fuck those people. maybe they will do me a favor and fire me
God, so many more. Fuck it…fuck it all. I’ll grab something to cover my body parts that i am not allowed to show and go. I’ll be fine. forget about it all. lets have another drink. vodka and red bulls…maybe the red bull will be alive in me later and I’ll get this done….maybe later: the story of my life, thats my after school movie autobiography. why does my wife put up with me? Oh yeah, cause I’m fucking cooler than ice that why B).
Sigur Ros…why am i listening to this now? this couldn’t be any less fitting to this moment.